Notes

Description: A poster at Texan Cafe.

Spill the beans
over an honest cup of coffee.

Enjoy the moment. Enjoy the memories.

Description: A note at the Gentlemen's Style barbershop.

I saw him again. Or at least I think so. He says he didn't. But I don't know anymore
I'm tired

can't find it
doesn't matter

that scraping noise again

Description: An article from a magazine in Andy's Bookstore at Katz St.

In March of 1965, the town of Silent Hill was visited by the Maine Psychical Research Association.

After thorough examination, a team of expert dowsers from the Association concluded the area surrounding the now-historic Wiltse Coal Mine to be “highly active”. They also expressed their hopes for further research and exploration of the gorge.

These hopes, however, were never fulfilled due to the location being restricted as a historic nature preserve, as declared by the Silent Hill Historical Society.

Additionally, the idea was met with resistance from the local community, which claimed that the nature of the Association’s research would hinder tourist activity in the area. “Questioning the credibility of our research and hiding behind day-trippers seems like an excuse to prevent us from seeing what's really out there," commented one of the researchers.

Unfortunately, none of the local representatives were available to comment on the matter.

Editor’s note: At the time of publishing, there exist no evidence supporting credibility of radiesthesia, or proving effectiveness of any dowsing methods. Opinions expressed in the article do not reflect the author's views.

Description: A poster in the laundromat at Katz St.

Super strong
Super clean

Wash away
the stains of yesterday!

Description: A message in the window at Neely's Bar.

There was
a HOLE
       here.
It's gone now

Description: A note at the counter of the Pet Center.

we caught it near Katz
we should have never brought it here
I don’t know what to do
I know it’s there
sitting and staring
can’t let it out.
can’t walk away
won’t let me go.

don’t look at it
don’t look it in the eyes

Description: Tourist posters in the window of the Air International shop.

TOLUCA LAKE

Enjoy almost 60 acres of a picturesque retreat.
It's the perfect romantic getaway!

LAKESIDE AMUSEMENT PARK

Spend a magical evening with Robbie the Rabbit, Kathy the Kitty, Huey the Horse and Dawn the Duck!

Fun times await!

LIGHTHOUSE

Take in the view.
Let it take your breath away.

OLD SILENT HILL

Venture off the beaten path and discover the hidden gems of Silent Hill, such as the beautifully preserved Balkan Church.

Description: A barricade message at the north end of Neely's St.

The door that wakes
in darkness,
opening into nightmares

Description: A poster in the Groovy Music shop.

Face the music!

Find the melody of your dreams

and kick up your heels!

Description: A dirty diary found in apartment 9 of Saul Street Apartments.

████████████

███████████

███████████████

And then she came and washed it all away. It all started to make sense again.

███

███████

It's this place
I can't fight it

Gotta get my head straight
Quick stop at Texan
Then we're going

Description: A music sheet on the piano in Apartment 101.

Vers La Flamme

Alexander Scriabin

Description: A tourist pamphlet on a bench in Rosewater Park.

Welcome to Silent Hill,
a quiet little lakeside Resort town.
We're happy to have you!
There’s no better place than here
to let go of your busy schedules
and finally enjoy a relaxing vacation.

Rows of quaint, rustic houses
mark a gorgeous mountain landscape,
and as the dawn turns to dusk
the surface of Toluca Lake
shines a whole range of dreamlike colors.

Silent Hill will move you
and fill your heart with peace.
We’re more than certain
your time here will be pleasant
and leave you with memories
that will stay with you
forever.

Description: A monument to Patrick Chester in Rosewater Park.

Patrick Chester, son of Edward.
He fought and died for the people,
for liberty and for all of our
tomorrows.
His memory lives on.

Description: A statue of two men shaking hands in Rosewater Park.

Description: A memorial in Rosewater Park.

In memory of the sixty seven
who died of illness and now sleep
beneath the lake.

Description: A monument to Jennifer Carroll in Rosewater Park.

Victim of persecution
by ████████ans.
Jenni████ Carroll lived
with pride and honor.
What happened here
shall never be forgotten.

Restored Text:

Victim of persecution
by the Christians.
Jennifer Carroll lived
with pride and honor.
What happened here
shall never be forgotten.

Description: A note on the table in the employee room of Pete's-Bowl-O-Rama.

Hey, what’s up with the rack on lane 3?

There’s some cloth clogging the hood and I can’t pull it out. What is that crap?

The balls are getting stuck by the end of the lane so I guess it goes all the way through the under-lane?

I tried to push it with a pin but I can’t.

I can’t push the pin in there, I tried both sides.

It’s blocked. I can’t.

Description: A newspaper on the desk inside the garage on Nathan Ave.

MASS LAYOFFS AT BROOKHAVEN HOSPITAL THREATEN THE INSTITUTION’S FUTURE

The layoffs we reported on last month are continuing. Over ten people have been let go, which has reduced the hospital's staff by more than half. If the situation does not improve, staff shortages will put patients at risk.

Brookhaven is a hospital with a long history. It was established in 1810 when a deadly epidemic swept through the Silent Hill area. Ever since, it has incessantly brought help to the residents of the town. However, more and more have made their voices heard of how the presence of a psychiatric hospital in the middle of the town has a negative impact on the local community. Residents fear that an incident from two years ago might repeat itself.

Description: A poster next to the weapon locker in the Security room.

SHOTGUN SAFETY RULES

1. SAFE DIRECTION
Keep your weapon pointed in a safe direction, so that accidental discharge will not cause injury.

2. FINGER OFF THE TRIGGER
Do not put your finger on the trigger unless you are ready to shoot at your intended target.

3. KEEP YOUR GUN UNLOADED
Keep your weapon unloaded while in storage. Only load your weapon when you are ready to use it.

Description: A note on the wall in the reception.

The director requested the files of the three “crucial” patients. You know which ones.
Could you please bring them to his office?

Description: A wall poster in the first floor corridor.
Note: The word "guilt" is not captioned.

REMEMBER

If you experience:

- poor appetite or significant weight loss,
- insomnia or hypersomnia,
- loss of interest or pleasure in usual activities,
- feelings of worthlessness or guilt,
- diminished abilities to think or concentrate,

contact your healthcare provider immediately!

Description: One of the three photos in the entrance lobby.

Nurses in training

Description: One of the three photos in the entrance lobby.

Dr. Hughes & Dr. Atkinson in the garden

Description: One of the three photos in the entrance lobby.

Brookhaven Hospital, ca. 1920

Description: A note on the wall in the Laundry Storage.

Running low:
- Bleach
- White laundry detergent
- Starch
- White sheets

The amount of bleach you use is getting ridiculous. And the sheets are not getting any whiter. I won't ask questions. Just end it.

Description: An old map of the Brookhaven Hospital in the basement storage.

Brookhaven Hospital, 1932

Description: A wall poster in the second floor corridor.

Take care of what matters most

Leave the rest to us

Toluca Palliative Care Center

Description: A diary on the desk in Room L1.

They brought in the girl today.
Poor thing hasn't said a word.
She just sits there, head in her hands,
sobbing and quivering.
I moved her to the corner bed,
seems to have calmed her down a bit.
She even smiled at me, I think.

Description: Observation notes in the typewriter in Room D2.

OBSERVATION NOTES - PATIENT No.0090

Day 1
Patient transferred for observation.
Malnourished. Shallow breathing. Avoids eye contact.
Agitated in presence of staff.
Frantic at the notion of touch.

Day 2
Patient refuses solid food.
Nasogastric forced feeding required.
Serotonin antagonists administered to reduce nausea and vomiting.

Day 3
Patient restrained for bathing and feeding (prepare the treatment room accordingly) Progressing malnourishment.
Oxygen deficiency.
Self-injury suspected (could not confirm).

Day 4
Something is very wro

Description: A doctor's diary on a coffee table inside the Doctors' Lounge.

This case bears a disturbing similarity to a situation that took place in the facility a few years back. The patient was admitted on a court order, but with the consent of his remaining family. His condition appeared to be improving for the first few weeks. The administered medications paired with individual sessions with a psychologist and art therapy alleviated his avolition, anhedonia, and social withdrawal. There was no reason for concern. They didnt even know anything was wrong until the night guard reported one of his keys was missing. When they found him, it was already too late.

Description: A diary in the Pharmacy.

Another incident with 0050
He got out of the pool, and made a break for the garden, cutting himself wide open in the process
Thank God I was still here
He was completely manic, screaming
Had the orderlies hold him down
Barely managed to stitch him up
He's back in his room for now, sedated

Description: A note next to the chute's discharge in the Kitchen.

It’s in the walls.
Deep inside.
The mold remover gets rid of it for a while, but then the thing reappears in the exact same spots.
We need to get in there, break it all down if we have to, and ROOT IT OUT.

Description: A poster in the corridor outside the Pantry.

FOOD AIDS MENTAL HEALTH

YES
- high fiber fruits and vegetables
- whole grain foods
- healthy fats including omega-3

NO
- highly processed snack foods
- highly refined grains
- red meat

Description: A medical report on the table in the Director's Office's storage (New Game+ only).
Note: The note contains the second code hint for the "Stillness" ending.

The cardiectomy procedure has proven successful. The results are all-around sufficient. The patient is faring as intended.
Time will tell if this is enough.

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Description: A writing on the wall in Room M2.

watch it go dark

Description: A note on the wall beside the Lady of the Door.

She is an angel no one knows only
I can see the Lady of the Door
they cannot walk along her Bridge
of Thread they fall from the weight
of their crimes.

Like bloated and ugly corpses
their sins she devours them
sin and sinner alike she saves
me she is an angel.

Description: A journal on the desk in the Reception Office

The potential for this illness exists in all people and, under the right circumstances, any man or woman would be driven, like him, to the 'other side'.

The 'other side' perhaps may not be the best way to phrase it.
After all, there is no wall between here and there. It lies on the borders where reality and unreality intersect. It is a place both close and distant.

Some say it isn't even an illness. I cannot agree with them. I'm a doctor, not a philosopher or even a psychiatrist, unlike the Director.

But sometimes I have to ask myself this question. It's true that to us his imaginings are nothing but the inventions of a busy mind. But to him, there simply is no other reality.
Furthermore, he is happy there.

So why, I ask myself, why in the name of healing him must we drag him painfully into the world of our own reality?

Description: A message above the jukebox at Neely's Bar.

If you ReaLly wAnt to
SEE Mary, you should just DIE.

But You might be hEadiNg to
A diffErent place than MARY,
James.

Description: A box buried by the statue of Jennifer Carroll in the Rosewater Park.

My patient buried it here.
I knew, but did nothing.
It made me uneasy to have
such a thing near.
I wasn't looking for the truth,
I was looking for tranquillity.

I also saw that thing.
I fled, but the old Society
was sealed.
No one dares to
approach that place.
Now, I offer you the key.

If you still do not wish to stop,
James,
I pray to the Lord to have
mercy on your eternal soul.

Description: One of the artworks in the Historical Society.

Description: One of the artworks in the Historical Society.

The Lady of the Light.
The unveiling of one of two statues commemorating the local folk tale

Description: One of the artworks in the Historical Society.

Little Baroness
The maiden voyage of 1916

Description: One of the artworks in the Historical Society.

"Misty Day,
remains of the Judgement"

Description: One of the artworks in the Historical Society.

Title Unknown
Author Unknown

Description: One of the artworks in the Historical Society.

"Waterfront Landscape"

Allen Smith (date of birth and death unknown)

A depiction of the local area. The style indicates it was done sometime around the 1820s, when the region was far less populated, with sparse infrastructure.

Description: One of the artworks in the Historical Society.

Silent Hill Historical Society Founders

Description: One of the artworks in the Historical Society.

Description: A book in the Historical Society.

among the local legends is that of the Lady of the Light. The story tells of a woman who was accused and found guilty of witchcraft. As punishment, she was taken to a small island out on the lake - a miniscule stretch of rocky soil, devoid of any food, or shelter. There, she was to suffer a slow, excruciating death, as her body succumbed to cold and hunger.

However, unbeknownst to the rest of the townsfolk, there was a young man among them, who - having gazed into the woman’s eyes, as bright and beautiful as a midsummer’s moon - had vowed undying love for her. When she was convicted, wrongly, as he believed, he swore that he would not let her suffer such cruel fate. While waiting for an opportunity to abscond with his beloved, every night, he would sneak out and row across the lake, bringing her food and something to keep her warm. And every night, the woman would stand there, on the shore, holding a lit candle, to help him find his way.

But then, one night, when the sky was exceptionally clear, devoid of even a wisp of cloud, the young man set out on his nightly escapade. As always, he would look out into the distance, looking for the light in the darkness that would lead him to his beloved. On that night, however, the moon shone so bright and so vibrant, stronger than any candle could. Seeing the light’s reflection in the water, the young man was led astray. He rowed, and rowed, and rowed, following the reflected light, hoping against hope he could reach it. He did not care for his aching arms, or the shortness of his breath, utterly mesmerized by the illusory light. When his boat tipped over, the man was so exhausted from rowing, so weakened were his arms, that he was not able to swim to shore. Thus, he succumbed to a watery grave.

Although left alone, the woman on the island never lost hope. She kept coming out at night, and kept lighting the candle. The legend says that those looking for true love can still see the Lady’s light out on the lake, shining to bring her beloved home.

While the story is clearly meant as a metaphor and a cautionary tale, it is, to a certain extent, rooted in reality, as the area has indeed seen its share of religious persecution, such as that of

Description: One of the artworks in the Historical Society.

[name scratched over, illegible]
Former Director of Brookhaven Hospital.

Description: One of the artworks in the Historical Society.

Brookhaven Hospital (1880)

The hospital was built in response to a great plague that followed a wave of immigration to the area. Originally, it was little more than a shack, but has since expanded into a fully fledged medical establishment.

Description: One of the artworks in the Historical Society.

Wiltse Coal Mine

Established around 1850, it remained operational until the early 1900s. The mine played a key role in the revitalization of Silent Hill.

Description: A short note on the desk beneath the Silent Hill Historical Society.

September 11,1820
Prisoner number: C-221

Description: One of the artworks in the room beneath the Silent Hill Historical Society.

Crimson and White Banquet for the Gods

Description: One of the artworks in the room beneath the Silent Hill Historical Society.

Death by Skewering

An execution at the prison. Death by Skewering or Strangling. To choose his death is the prisoner’s last taste of freedom.

Description: One of the artworks in the room beneath the Silent Hill Historical Society.

Toluca Prison Camp

Built in 1862, the Camp was used to house prisoners during the American Civil War. Converted into Toluca Prison in 1866.

Description: Main Section, a diary on the desk in the Vestry.

The prisoners do not feel remorse. In fact, they do not feel themselves to be sinful at all.

Even the simplest of them will try to shield themselves from the Lord's gaze with what little words they know.

And so, they dream blissfully, the sinners that they are.

For no matter how foul and loathsome one's existence may be, human nature abides.

• Description: Main Section, a note next to Cell A6.

This cell is to be cleaned up by Tuesday. Make sure you get the cons do it by then.

The previous tenant has been moved to death row as per the Warden’s order.

Description: Serpent Section, a note on the notice board in the Guardroom.

A reminder to all guards. EFFECTIVE IMMEDIATELY, it is ABSOLUTELY MANDATORY for EVERYONE to familiarize themselves with the revised generator maintenance manual.

We all remember what happened last time there was a spike, though I'm certain most of us would very much want to forget.

WE WILL NOT HAVE ANOTHER INCIDENT.

Description: Serpent Section, a report on a desk in a room north of Cell E10.

EXECUTION DR88 REPORT

Prisoner: E-662
Age: 23
Sex: Male
Method: Electrocution
Witnesses: 0

Note to medical staff.

During last night's execution, the prisoner, assumed to have been disabled, simply stood up and approached the chair without any assistance.

From now on, take utmost care when reviewing the prisoner's medical history. Guards need to be made aware how capable the prisoners are in order to avoid any incidents.

Description: Serpent Section, a magazine on a bench inside the Witness Checkpoint.

In the center of Silent Hill lies
the town's major tourist attraction,
Toluca Lake.
But there’s a darker side to this
scenic, beautiful reservoir.

What may seem a bread-and-butter
local ghost story you’ve heard time
and time again,
in this case, rings surprisingly true.

One fateful, fog-bound November day in
1918, a tourist cruiser called Little Baroness,
has set sail never to dock again.

Newspaper articles reporting the event
contain no details of the ship’s disappearance.
Despite an extensive police search, neither
a single fragment of the ship nor
the remains of the passengers or the crew
have ever been recovered.

But in 1939, an even more bizarre incident
has taken place.

[Many pages are missing, torn out]

Many corpses rest at the bottom
of this lake. Their bony hands
stretch out toward the boats that
pass overhead. Perhaps they
reach for their comrades.

Description: Ox Section, a note around the hole in the ground in Cell C1.

it is bad to take
when they own
they said they own

when one does own
the other can't take
but I cannot own?
should the warden take?

no, he shouldn't own
again, I will take
I will own

Description: Ox Section, a journal on the desk.

SUNDAY

Morning Route

Disruption reported, C-140 yelling about C-777 "haunting" him, claims "bars can't hold him". Administered sedative to C-140.

Noon Lockup

Performed precautionary search of C-777's cell (D5). No traces found of the prisoner leaving his cell unsupervised. Recommend further psychiatric evaluation of C-140.

Afternoon Route

C-140 AND C-777 MISSING FROM THEIR CELLS. ALARM RAISED. SEARCH IN EFFECT.

Update: Bathroom door barred from inside. Efforts made to get them open.

We don't hear anything from the other side.

Evening Lockup

Description: Ox Section, a writing on the wall in the shower area.

THEY WON’T SAVE YOU

Description: Boar Section, a journal on the desk.

SUNDAY

Morning Route

Incident at the infirmary. D-183 assaulted medical staff, attempted to steal medication. Situation under control.

Noon Lockup

Rumors of disease spreading among the prisoners. Reported to administration.

Afternoon Route

E-130 had a coughing fit. Reported to medical staff.

Evening Lockup

Description: Boar Section, a note on the wall.

He locked himself in. Took the key.

None of the COs got a spare, but I know there is one.

He was going nuts over the "disease", see if the head nurse doesn't have it.

Thinks he's safe up there. He'll get what's comin

Description: Boar Section, a note on a reception desk in a small room next to the Break Room.

Regarding the emergency medical examination report:

The report's conclusions are incorrect.

The prisoners are sick. Examinations are to be repeated until their condition is properly diagnosed. Use more invasive methods if necessary.

We MUST know the true nature of this affliction. All else is secondary.

Description: Boar Section, a note on a wall in a room south of the Infirmary.

New rules of conduct, effective immediately:

1. Guards are to keep their distance from the prisoners at all times.

2. Any attempts of approaching the guards by the prisoners are to be met with immediate disciplinary action.

3. Prisoners are to be confined to their cells until further notice.

Description: Boar Section, a typewriter in the Warden's office.

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I. C ksick sick!
II. Sic ksic ksicksicks.
III. Cksic ks icksi cksick sicksicksi - ck sick!

Description: Dove Section, one of the three paintings in Cell F4.

Woman in Flight

Description: Dove Section, one of the three paintings in Cell F4.

436 People at a Recital

Description: Dove Section, one of the three paintings in Cell F4.

Burning Man

Description: Dove Section, a note on the bulletin board.

Due to recent acts of inmate violence, prisoner D-239 has been transferred to solitary confinement, cell F6.

Description: A newspaper on the floor in the small entryway before the Abstract Daddy boss fight.

The bo████f a man later identified as Thomas Oro████Lumberjack, ag█ 39) was discovered in the ████████████████om lying fa██████

The probable cause of dea████as multiple stab wounds to the front of the neck and the left side of the torso by a sharp edged weapon. The estimated████e of death was somewhere between 11:00 p.████nd 12:30 midnight.

Due to signs of struggle in the room and the lack of a murder weapon, police are cons██ering this a homicide and have opened a murder investigation.

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Restored Text:

The body of a man later identified as Thomas Orosco (Lumberjack, age 39) was discovered in the middle of the room lying face up.

The probable cause of death was multiple stab wounds to the front of the neck and the left side of the torso by a sharp edged weapon. The estimated time of death was somewhere between 11:00 p.m. and 12:30 midnight.

Due to signs of struggle in the room and the lack of a murder weapon, police are considering this a homicide and have opened a murder investigation.

Furthermore, given the fact that the cash in the room was untouched and Mr. Orosco had a history of drunkenness and violence, the police suspect that the motive was not robbery but some sort of crime of passion.

Description: Inscribed on a tombstone in the catacomb.

This felon drank one last bottle of ale before he was executed and laid here to his eternal rest.

Description: Inscribed on a tombstone in the catacomb.

Miriam K. -"Traitor"

Description: Inscribed on a tombstone in the catacomb.

Walter Sullivan

Description: Inscribed on a tombstone in the catacomb.

Angela Orosco

Description: Inscribed on a tombstone in the catacomb.

Eddie Dombrowski

Description: Inscribed on a tombstone in the catacomb.

James Sunderland

Description: A poster at the garden's pier.

LAKEVIEW BOAT RENTALS

Spend unforgettable moments on Toluca Lake!

These waters will bring you peace!

$15 for the day

Description: Inscription plate of the garden's central fountain.

As the cold draws near
They abandon their old nests
to return in time

Description: A notice in front of the locked west gate.

This section of the garden is closed for maintenance.
Sorry for the inconvenience.

Description: Inscription plate of the garden's east fountain.

Lone one of the east
out of the water’s safety
now lost, out of breath

Description: A registry book found in the room adjacent to the Reception.
Note: The note contains the third and the last code hint for the "Stillness" ending.

Tenant | Renting to | Rent due?

W.B. | March | N
P.J.H. | March | N
A.Y. | Next year | Y
R.D.J. | April | N
J.S. | Indefinitely | Paid in full
A.M. | December | N
S.B. | October? | N
Z.H. | October | N

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Description: Laura's drawing on the Lake Shore Restaurant's window.

Description: A music sheet on the table in the Lake Shore Restaurant.

Intermezzo Op. 118 No. 2
by Johannes Brahms

Description: A funeral invitation on a bed in Room 101.

In loving memory of Sean Mitchell, the family regret to inform you of his passing.

The funeral service will be held at the St. Stella Church in South Vale (intersection of Nathan Ave. and Neely St.) at 11am.

Following the service, we will hold a small reception at Sean’s family home.

Description: A message on the blackboard in the Utility Room.

Hedera helix seems to have some kind of pest
Separate from the rest of the plants or they’ll all die

Description: A poster next to Room 208.

SILENT HILL FLOWER DELIVERIES

Perfect flowers for perfect occasions!

Our Bestsellers:

Lilies - Chrysanthemums - Hydrangeas - Gardenias - Gladioli - Carnations -Daffodils - Hyacinths - Violets - Roses - Orchids - And More!

20% off for wedding bouquets!

CALL US: 1207-

Description: A medical record on a desk in the Nurse's Office.

MEDICAL RECORD
PATIENT

M.S.S.

Description: Inscription plate of the garden's west fountain.

Large one of the west
tempted by the lure’s appeal
failed to resist it

Description: A heater in the corner of the Break Room.

I'm Johnny, one hot guy.

Description: A poster for the employees on the wall in the Break Room.

LAKEVIEW HOTEL
7 Golden Rules for Employees

* Employees should report for duty on time
* Employees should not be absent without valid reason
* Employees should report for duty in well-pressed uniforms
* Employees should not take off their uniforms while on duty
* Employees should maintain a polite and helpful attitude towards the hotel guests
* Employees should help maintain a positive public image of the hotel
* Employees should immediately hand in any lost items

Description: A blackboard message in the Laundry Room.

Nothing works
It just won't wash off
Order new sheets

Description: A note on the wall in Room 303.

There is no healing of thy bruise;
thy wound is grievous

Description: A burned bible in Room 207.

Wash yourselves, make yourselves clean;
Remove the evil of your deeds from My sight

Description: Complete text of Mary's letter as narrated in the "Leave" and "In Water" endings.

In my restless dreams, I see that town.
Silent Hill.

You promised me you'd take me there again someday.
But you never did.

Well, I'm alone there now... In our special place... Waiting for you to come to see me.
But you never do.

So I wait. Wrapped in my cocoon of pain and loneliness.

I know I've done a terrible thing to you.
I wish I could change that. But I can't.
I feel so pathetic and ugly laying here.
Every day I stare up at the cracks in the ceiling.
And all I can think about is how unfair it is.

The doctor came today.
Told me I could go home for a short stay.
It’s not that I'm getting better.
It’s just that this could be my last chance.
Even so, I'm glad to be coming home.
I've missed you so much.

But I'm afraid, James.
I'm afraid you don't really want me to come home.
Every time you come to see me, I can tell how hard it is on you.
I don't know if you hate me, or pity me.
Or maybe I just disgust you.

I'm so sorry.
When I first learned I was gonna die, I couldn't accept it.
I was so angry. I struck out at everyone I loved. Especially you.
That's why I understand if you hate me. But I want you to know...

I will always love you.
Even though our life together had to end like this...
I still wouldn't trade it for the world.

Well, this letter has gone on too long. So I'll say goodbye.
I told the nurse to give this to you after I'm gone.
Which means that, as you read this, I'm already dead.
But that's okay. I'm not afraid of it anymore.
I just hope the pain will end soon.
So that you remember me for who I was.
And not what the disease made me.

I want you to go on.
I want you to live.
For yourself and for others.
Like you did for me.

James... You made me happy.